If I had a million dollars I would spend it to forget you

I am way too tired to do anything productive. I have to stop forgetting to eat dinner and then going to the bar because then I transform into the girl who gets drunk off of three beers and nobody likes that except for maybe boys looking to take advantage of my vulnerability.

I also have to stop waking people up in the middle of the night to tell them about my dream about typography. No one wants to hear that at 4:00am.

So here is a question for you (okay, like five questions). When you go out with a certain boy and another couple does that mean you are dating? Does that mean I have a boyfriend and don't even know it? Do I not have any say in this matter?

 

Isn't it funny how when people drink they say things they probably shouldn't? NO NO NO, it isn't funny in any way. What do you say when this other couple who is friends with this boy invites you on a trip in June? Do you say, gee I don't know if I will still like him then? Maybe a "state of the relationship" discussion must be had if only to warn this boy of what kind of situation his potentially entering.

 

I think for the first time EVER in my entire life I have plans on Valentine's Day. Generally, I avoid relationships which span over the holiday season, but this one kind of just happened so here we are. What do people do on Valentine's Day anyway? I hope it doesn't involve flowers and chocolate because that would make me throw up in my own purse. But secretly, deep down I am super cheesy and generic and I hope that we can go ice skating while it is snowing and hold hands and drink hot chocolate. Don't ever tell anyone I said that. I also think that old school R&B that people probably like Samuel L. Jackson listen to is really romantic.

 

I have a strong desire to go out downtown to some sketchy 16plus dance club and wear slutty clothes and stripper shoes. Now I just have to convince some girls to come with me.