I'm not the type of girl who refuses to kiss on the first date. I am the kind of girl who very rarely engages in casual copulation, excluding the times of course when hormonal impulses take advantage of my sensibility. It just isn't a kind of activity that I'd like to make a habit. Maybe it's my Midwest sensibility, maybe I'm prudish. This is why I wonder why some people are so persistent and so sure that at 2:46am I'd be apt to deliver on their request. It is kind of like when Master Tony Pierce told the italian girl that "whoever that dude is hes an idiot cuz this shit is definately worth like at least a 1am booty call, certainly not a 3amer and she was all, thats why hes getting no play". I'm not so sure the time of the request would have made me more apt to honor the request, but maybe. I don't pretend that 75% of my male friends are my friends just because they enjoy my company and I'd expect that if I'd ask them about their true ambitions, they wouldn't lie.
I don't know, I'm probably being stupid. I bring this upon myself really. I shouldn't be angry with this boy because I've built him a variable reward system, which encourages him to be persistent, one whose record extends at least six years. I guess that makes me the villain and I guess that if I called him at 3am I'd expect him to comply to my needs. So yes, I am being entirely unfair. Who am I kidding? Mostly myself. I'd like to believe that I possess some superior morality, but my thought process relies on a value system well beyond and superior to morality.
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